Life..kiss and tell

have you ever felt like you just dont belong into your family? well i do...mom just keep on neg on me..and dad, we dont seems to talk..the way i see it, my family have communication problem..mom always talk...but, it is hard to tell to whom she telling...if she call by name...thats fine..but this is not how it normally goes..dad...i had nothing to blog really..our closed relationship end when i got into high school..after upsr..i guess my whole family was disappointed with me and the result..for me, Malaysians education is sucks...simply boring...i the math...but anything beside it seems to be bored me...nothing to be interested..lame..lame..lame..lame..the one thing i hate is, surviving the look of our parent when we disappointed them..for me, i really hate those moment..it make me think like i just dont belong to them...i bet, mom doesnt know my favorites..only if it the obvious..sometimes i wished to have family that really like one..parent that understand their child/children...for me, my only hope to build that family..one day...when i can now decide to settle down..for the present, i'm just being son. good or bad? its up to them..i have nothing to say..and if i do, i cant say it. it again my religion. and i'm obeying it.