That's Why

I'm the only son in my family...out of four...and i'm also can be metaphor as the black sheep..this is proved by my parents which disappointed in my under achieving result...the never will be proud of me...even when i'm involved myself in photography, it just like wind past through...there was time that my friend invited me to be photographer for their annual dinner...and my parent reaction was...nothing...as expected...ever wonder why children always keep secrets from their parents? i got a lot of reasons...1st, there is always an angry tone voice of our parents...when we done something wrong...i think the saying parent is your closest friend should be reconsider...i would never believe in that crap of shit..2nd, parent always have higher expectation to their children...and the sad look of their face will always haunted their children..if i given a choice to die peacefully today, i will take it...cause it is better than i'm disappointing my parents...and my reason to not go back to home would be them..that's why i always consider being away from home...when the time is right...i will not even doubt to take it...sometimes, i wish i had born in another family...a family, that should and function like one...parents that understand their children, and talk to them frequently..and one we can consider to be our savior...i will always keep my secrets from my parents...there are no points of telling it..i always knew the outcome result...reactions with combination of yelling, mad, angry, and sarcastic...