Going Campus.....so not cool~

I already packed my things and stuffs..only left my guitar, laptop, jacket...huhuh..nothing really sad actually, just that my life...will turn when i'm starting my life on campus..Hafiz is still at home with me.i will be going to the campus first before sending him to his flat, that he and Irsyad are renting..

Tonight, i will have a guest in my room...Adie...he can get his room key by today, so..with my permission, i let him stay in my room...hahaa...there will be a lot of things to be story...maybe till midnight..haha

mok pulang dahh...huhuhuh....

bye-bye Nidun The Cat..

That's Why

I'm the only son in my family...out of four...and i'm also can be metaphor as the black sheep..this is proved by my parents which disappointed in my under achieving result...the never will be proud of me...even when i'm involved myself in photography, it just like wind past through...there was time that my friend invited me to be photographer for their annual dinner...and my parent reaction was...nothing...as expected...ever wonder why children always keep secrets from their parents? i got a lot of reasons...1st, there is always an angry tone voice of our parents...when we done something wrong...i think the saying parent is your closest friend should be reconsider...i would never believe in that crap of shit..2nd, parent always have higher expectation to their children...and the sad look of their face will always haunted their children..if i given a choice to die peacefully today, i will take it...cause it is better than i'm disappointing my parents...and my reason to not go back to home would be them..that's why i always consider being away from home...when the time is right...i will not even doubt to take it...sometimes, i wish i had born in another family...a family, that should and function like one...parents that understand their children, and talk to them frequently..and one we can consider to be our savior...i will always keep my secrets from my parents...there are no points of telling it..i always knew the outcome result...reactions with combination of yelling, mad, angry, and sarcastic...

6325. what a day

Finally today i can go to Uitm to take my room's key...but it was a hell a day...at about 8 a.m, I start to drive to Uitm with hope of it will be just alright...but, when i arrive at the office, the clerk said that i print a wrong college letter...it was suppose to be "Pra-Kolej" letter that should state my room number..

after that humiliation, i went to the nearest cyber cc....shit! the server was so busy..even though we need to choose between Server 1, Server 2 and Server 3 all of it is useless...none worked...i dunno what else to do but to go home...

UiTM server sucks!

on my way home, i use the St Thomas road...th traffic was heavy...this is because of student Permuafakatan Day...due to my frustration of not being able to get my key, i was unable to fully focus on my driving...i accidentally tap bumper of a car in front of me...it was just tap...but, the women driving the car need to go out from the car and checked it for herself...(i told you so) nothing happen...not even a scratch...

while i was at home, i text my friend who bought the same letter as me, and said that she was able to get her key...sadly after i leave, the Uitm server was jammed/too busy and it had cause the college office to do registration using manual...

Oh My Gosh~! (Usher) at 11.00 a.m i rushed myself to get the key before the office close for lunch time break....luckily i arrive just in time at about 11.50 a.m and manage to get the key!

the driving should usually take about 30 mins....but the was accident, plus police road block...that what makes the timing expand...shit! thank Allah i made it...

my room, 6325...i guess i can consider it slightly bigger than other room in other blocks..just lucky that i will be living alone...my previous roommate sucks...i'm better without them this time..

tonight will be packing and packing...there are a lots of thing to be consider...hahhaa....

Oh No~! It's JULY!

huhuhuh...it's 1st of July already....by mathematics calculation, plus 4 days i should wake up early and get dress in my formal uniform and get going to my first class of the day..huuhuh..by adding 15 days to the first July i should have already wished my girlfriend happy birthday...and it is time to give her present...gosh..i dunno what to give to her...i just did the best thing that i can do..for her present...hope she will like it..huhuhu

Today, on this First Of July in 2010 i already started on ticking my check list...a long list that should include all the things that i will have in my hostel...room 6325, Block 6B...

JULY

By adding 2 days to the 1st of July, i will be going back to Uitm to take my room's key..and its probably best for me to bring a long things..so that by Sunday the 4rd, i dont have to carry many things..hahaha..just hoping that the Saturday will be just another fine day...huhu

The Story Of Blue Jean

From my early years of teenager, i never worn blue jean...i hate it...well this is since my mom bought jean for me...its totally not what i would wear...and of course the jean was in blue...i hate it somehow...and have no intention to wear it at all.

Since i did not wear that jean, i dont know what the hell happened to it..my possible guess would be that the jean already send to my grandma' house..maybe better that way...

Not long after that, i bought jean from my friend...brand called "Deam Mecca" (quite not sure) size 36...the young me, was exited! because the jean was in black...and its all that matter...haha...

the jean have been though with me for a long time...i still keep it in my jeans collection..i still can wear it...even though in size 36..hahah

after that black jeans, i keep on buying only black jeans...that tradition was sadly....broken..this year...when i was in KL...huhuh

while shopping at Sogo in KL..in the holiday season...i shop for jeans...its time for a new jeans...haha...i only buy jeans that is less RM100...no need for it to be so expensive...i once..did buy an expensive jean...cost about RM98...as i recalled...luckily using my dad's money...i was just a student..hahaha

back at Sogo, searching for new jeans...i found it...with my aim only those in black and dark...haha...i bought one..black and dark..but suddenly, i seems to be attracted to this blue jeans..brand DiESEL...when i put it on, wow~ kinda like it on me...so without further thought i took it along the black and dark jean...again, by my dad's money...heheheh

surprisingly, that blue jean that i bought i used it all the time...hhaha...its like im in love with it...plus, i dont need to cut it to match height...this is the destiny of me and the jeans...hahah

this is truly my reunion with a blue jean

Final Day Of June in 2010

huhuh...today mark as the final day of month June in year of 2010....this is another reminder for me, that i have exactly 6 days before starting my life in campus again...huhuhuh...

today i accomplished my mission...hahah..

1. pay my collage fined
2. pay my collage fee
3. cut my hair

unfortunately, i cant get my room key yet..

only by Saturday it is available...so not cool~~

Good Bye June . 2010

It's Near

huhuhu....my summer holidays is going to end soon...by tomorrow, i will have my hair cut, paid my bill and settle my collage issue...huhuhhu

a lot things to be pack...and buy...today i already settle washing my footwear...and clothes that i wear in campus..still, i think i have many things to do..huhuh

7 Days to start lecture! pressure~~

so not cool!!

World Cup

Can You feel me?

my cat is in world cup fever~! hahaha....he is playing for England team..

(shirt originally form Celcom's blue bear)

Day/Night Out With Reza

Back to home

blur but beautiful

Kuching Street At Night

Wisma Seberkas Junctions

Red Lights

full moon + lights

Cat Statue in FIFA's Worlds Cup Sensation

fun at Parkson's Toys Section..hahha

Ronald McDonald's McChicken Burger

fries~!

Never Come True

i decided to list all things that i wished to do/be one..but i know never (will be) come true..

1. graffiti artist. i did try..but there is more to be learn...and creativity is the most important thing..

2. movie director. i dont know...just wished to direct my own movie..haha

3. movie editor...just wished to be able to make effect to (an) awesome film/movie...

4. composer/song writer....i did try...umm..long way to go..

5. singer/artist...i know i suck at it...so enough trying..haha

6. actor...humm...maybe..

7. hacker..no good platform to start..the subject was dropped from my course...shit!

8. professional guitarist..i know i will never be one...i can just be those guitarist who play only the simple chord...

9. athlete...i cant be one..i suck at sports...well, at least i enjoy playing..

10. in-line skating...i did try also..but..sucks! i hate falling..to much pain in the ass..

11. designer...possible..

12. drifter..long way to go..plus, expensive...huhuh

13. sniper..my long lost dream...

14. join army.

15. fly..get above ground

16. pilot...my add math suck...this never get me flyin' an aeroplane...

17. perform base jump...cool...seeing earth as i fall down...

18. bunjee jump..want to try..but...but..but...

19. lose my weight to 60..a lot of hard work to be done..

20. become taller than taller..haha...i'm already at my limit...huhuh

21. become house to blackjack...

22. be a magician..i try..but and but...

23. perform backflip...i dreamed of it...

24. perform breakdance...but, may harm my body...

25. swimming in the Olympic's pool...

26. perform diving...but...

27. die peacefully..only Allah Knows..

28. become comedian...haha

29. become host to a tv shows...hahha..even more haha..

30. draw manga...

31.

*i resume later..seems to be memory lost...huhu

Life..kiss and tell

have you ever felt like you just dont belong into your family? well i do...mom just keep on neg on me..and dad, we dont seems to talk..the way i see it, my family have communication problem..mom always talk...but, it is hard to tell to whom she telling...if she call by name...thats fine..but this is not how it normally goes..dad...i had nothing to blog really..our closed relationship end when i got into high school..after upsr..i guess my whole family was disappointed with me and the result..for me, Malaysians education is sucks...simply boring...i the math...but anything beside it seems to be bored me...nothing to be interested..lame..lame..lame..lame..the one thing i hate is, surviving the look of our parent when we disappointed them..for me, i really hate those moment..it make me think like i just dont belong to them...i bet, mom doesnt know my favorites..only if it the obvious..sometimes i wished to have family that really like one..parent that understand their child/children...for me, my only hope to build that family..one day...when i can now decide to settle down..for the present, i'm just being son. good or bad? its up to them..i have nothing to say..and if i do, i cant say it. it again my religion. and i'm obeying it.

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i now realize that i can survive without facebook....i dont need it anymore...but, this attempt seems to fail..im back using it..no further reason..just for her. i be a bad bf if i say directly to her that i hate fb n her using it..goshh..im a messed...facebook is a mistake..i decided that i wont make any updates on fb..no more status...no more pics..im just being in fb...and not really in it anymore..the only thing i missed is blackjack..and yet, i still can manage my addiction..

last nite, it was totally shit...my ex add my gf??? wtf! now she adding me on fb...i totally say ignore to that...i thought i made it clear already....i dont want anything to do with her...now it is the second time i decline her..still she dont seems to understand...shit! why you dont get the me?? i hate you! get away from my life! no need you in it! im totally fine without you!

this is one of thousand reasons why exactly i hate fb...well, i just doing this for her. and hope she understand it. this is my sacrifice. i'm willing to suffer if it is her happiness. nothing can beat the feeling seeing your love one in the happiness. and you dont exactly have to be in it.

sometimes i wish i can disappear. to nowhere. just being away. from my family. from her (sadly). and everyone else. i just want to be alone..maybe thats my destiny..maybe someday i will be going to it..

i'm the type of guy who just want to know...but this may burden her..and i have to gave up this habit..anything to make her happy..sometimes..i dont seems to connect the dots why she need me in her life..i felt like i'm nobody..just passing by..giving her happiness that she earned..

would it be so wrong if just turned of my phone for one day. will she be missing me. or mad. or sad. or worry. i cant never tell..i want to know..but to many risk to the possible future..and i willingly to not doing and asking about this...the answer will never be there if i asked..

i think im being a bad bf..really. just felt that way. the day before she when to kl. we when out. for breakfast. on her. but..in the car..we didnt talk much..no holding hand like normally we should..the thing she doesnt know is, that day, i was feeling lost..i can just say no to the breakfast..but i didnt...i still going..'coz i know this i her happiness..and i will be the one who in making it happen..while eating is worst..i didnt talk much..i finish my meal early than she did..and i was in doing nothing..just being quiet..watching her eating..

the day she went to kl..moment before she boarding..i cant take it anymore..i think she will be better will someone else..i man up, and tell her..while her phone still on rather than telling her while she still in the flight...i tell her..that i want her to find someone who is better than me..and maybe thats the best for her..and i said sorry to her for not being what she want..she call me...but the airport was too noisy to talk...texting is the only option here..she said a few stuff..and i take back my word...and until today, i trying to forget it ever happened..

i want to end this post with, i'm here to be the one that take no regret to make you happy.

Chord EA14

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YES!!!! Its finally here~! hahah....my beloved guitar has arrived! just bought it this afternoon...i only donated RM20, and my sister and my mom RM100 each..hahah

only the pick is free..huhuhu

Chord

Pass~!

UiTM impressed me when they sent me my result right into my mail...wow~ never been done before..haaha....if i knew this will happen i dont have to got the the trouble of checking my result at its student portal...

BEL260 B

CSC138 A-

MAT183 C

MAT263 C+

HBU126 B+

CTU151 B+

CSC159 B-

total cgpa : 3.15

i only thing i can say is, i'm lucky and thankful 'coz i pass in calculus 1 (mat183) fuhh~ the next sem will be so different for me...bring a lot of new meaning to computer science~

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Turn out, i can survived without logging to facebook...thats what i did...i deactived my facebook account...i have no reason to not to..seems like i bored to it...

well, this may be my greatest achieve of all time..hahahaha...to stop my addiction..umm...i think i dont want to my comeback.. no reason..

my examination result already published, but i know the portal will be hopeless...the server will be busy as hell...and this happened all the time due to examination result.

i have nothing to feel for my result. fear? might be a bit...the rest is empty..just nothing...shit happened..hahah..

lately my expression can be express by Sum 41 , the Canadian rock band...feel much better to hear their song..maybe you should to...

Sum41 - Walking Disaster

Sum41 - With Me

Water

the last time i remember i went inside a swimming pool is when i was in Sabah..on holiday trip..and that was it. the end...no more swimming..hahha..sad...

since my sister back from US, both of us eager to swim...we tried 2 times at the Samarahan swimming pool, but the pool keep on closed when we arrived! first, there was the Gawai holiday....and then, it was closed due to Sukma (they are training at there) and also the lifeguard when for a bla..bla...bla... at Miri....the pool will be open at 19 june (so as it say~~~)

so frustrated! now, the only way for both of us to swim is, we both have to get swimsuit..and then we can swim! in the same day, we went around Kuching to find swimsuit....the target is Sports shop.. surprisingly, only some sale swimsuit....but, my sister bought her's at Parkson..hahahah

yeah, swimsuit ain't cheap...just for her cost up to RM180++...shirt & pant...never mind, this is for losing some fat! hahaa...

the next day, that is the day that we really really go for a swim..hahah...at time about 2.00 pm local time, we first stop at Spring to buy goggle. (as you may see int the pictures).

after that stop, quickly head to Waterpark, Stampark, BDC. with entrance cost RM5.50 per person, what the hell~ i want to swim! hahah the first time when into swimming pool after years not to...huhuh.....the feel was amazing...felt like i'm in reality tv show..hahaha...

the goggle was also amazing, clear & no fog...without, my swimming will be helpless...hhahhaa

the Waterpark was big....there are 3 pool (might be more..haha) first there was the Children's, Diving And Olympic and the normal pool.

since the is no lifeguard on duty, i only step in diving pool. just for a while...my eager to go deeper to the pool might cost my life..huhuh....

arriving at home, my back was killing me...pain~pain~..and hungry! hahaha....it was worth it... tomorrow, MBKS pool, Padungan. ahhaha....and finally Samarahan pool...must try all...hahah

White-breasted Waterhen / Burung Ruak-Ruak

Burung Ruak-Ruak (wak wak) / White-breasted Waterhen

moment before.............

cute isnt it?

this morning was shocking. to all of us. especially.

as you all can see in the above, its a bird...hahaha...we all were shock....thanks to our warrior, Putih, the not so putih cat...hahahah

this morning she shocked us with her latest catch of the day...a bird! a big one!....thats out of ordinary!....Putih, she is synonym to catching anything that fascinates her...usually, she just catch a lizard...but not today..hahahah

the bird was still alive when she bought home....but already weak...well, she a cat...no mercy! ...hahaha...

i try not to let any other cats come near to the bird, but they cant just stand of it...hahaha...Tam, was already bitten the bird's wing while i was cooking...hahaha...the bird was in cage...didnt saw that coming..hahah

the bird did died at the end. no pity. he/she already dying. i'm glad to be by he/she side..hehehe

~~(Tam did end up eating the bird)~~

Today Was All-Wrong

Early morning...i woke up with intention to go for a swim today. i already picture how it will turn out...sadly, after a 30++ minutes drive to the Kota Samarahan swimming pool, the guard told us that it is closed for Gawai's holiday.disappoint.tulah...malang..

we decided to go to Secret Recipe...want to take away few slice of cake...hahaha..but first, my sister need to withdraw some money from bank..using her CIMB account, it was also malang...the account was inactive...(she been in state for 2 years)...with that fail, she try using her international account, at HSCB. it is even worst!! ....

the card was eaten!!...by the atm...huhh...so much for my Mc'Chicken and Secret Recipe cake...huhuhuh.....the bank told her to come back tomorrow to take the card...both of us decided to delay our plan to eat at McDonald...

on our way home, she want to buy twist potato at emart for our little sister...huhhh!! malang (again!)....turn out the stall just about to be set up...the time was around 12.30++...huhuhu...

we head home with a total failure of our plan.

Ohya, things even malang when we want to go out that afternoon..heavy rain stopped us.

* written by faith*

runaway

have you ever felt like want to runaway?

for that particular moment, you just want to be alone, nothing to worry, nothing to bother..

i dreamed to runaway like that....my spot will be Japan....just want to gone from all the things around me...i dont know why i have this thing for Japan..i just want to go there...and have a moment of me and myself..

owakudani sunset

my life so far.....umm..sigh~...nothing much to talk..i kinda hate my life...lately, i felt like i'm so useless..nothing...no value at all..nothing to be proud of...and i hate this feeling....i'm not the type of guy who can be so mad at something..i'm just the type that will be sad about it...i will be sad, and mostly hide myself...

if i can go somewhere (Japan), i will go right now...when i will be back? i dont know whether i will answer it.

Electrico - Runaway

*this song has nothing to do with what i'm writing above*