Milo shake & Fried Rice added with Cheesy Omelette

These few days, I been bored with food that I'm eating. Not that I'm not great full, but honestly it is not cool to eat the same thing all along. Its time to add a little bit of imagination.

Above you can see my delight Milo shake. Its not ordinary. There will be taste of chocolate ice cream and a taste of a little bit of milk. It is mesmerizing!

I improve my cooking. Presenting, Cheesy Omelette with fried rice,

This shoot is not the best. Clearly, the lighting sucks. But, pay attention to the omellette. Filled with melted cheese taste. I indeed love cooking this Cheesy omelette. Its so tasty. It is so much better than making an omelette an sprinkle it with cheese.

The fried rice, is not something new to me. Its what i used to cook. Cabbage, carrot is for surely in there. And the most importantly, there is powder of Chinese's fried rice. haha..

(......)

People will never can understand me. Close will be my girlfriend, but not completely. My personal side will be easy to understand. But, whenever asking my family side. Things will be different. I always lie whenever people asked about my family (especially about my parent). The lie I'm talking about is the lie that mostly about my relationship with them. In this family, I will always feel like I'm not belong with them. Its like I an adopted son, but the catch is, I'm not. Not even once I felt that I'm lucky to be apart of this family. Somehow, I always have communication problem with my parents. Their styles of communicating with me never seems to be suit with me. My mother for example, never ask me in a good way for a favor. Some sort of high pitch voice always seems to be in the content. I hate when that happened. I will always remains wondering why me and my father never seems to get along. I remember back in high school, my teacher asked me to hug my father when I received the award form him. But, I never did it. As I grow up, I felt that family have nothing special meaning to me. If ask about family, I only be thinking about my sisters. They are the people that I please to talk with. Not my parents. I did try. And as I knew, it will never work. It sucks. Last night, we went out for dinner at Seven On Seven cafe, Matang Jaya. The place is beautiful. The table that we seated was for 6 people. I did know why that table was chosen. I sat lonely on my spot. Nobody beside me. If my elder sister were there, it will be her. The whole night, I just sat quietly. I have nothing to talk. I know I dont deserved to be in this family. I the only son that did not make my parents any proud. And i know that is a concrete fact. I will never add my father on my facebook. I have a lots of reasons. It will never happened. Facebook, so many times I have deactivated it. The only reason why it still active is my girlfriend. She 'force' me to active it. Hardly for me to say no. I will not argue with Allah decision of letting me see this world. I only never been happy in this family. Atmosphere of stress exists between me and my family. Sometimes, I thought of dying. And I think I'm ready. It just a pressure days in my life. I disappointed them. for sure. I wonder what it will be like if I'm far away from my family. For sure, it will hard for me to call them. What the things that I should talk to them? Things that I do, will never be enough to make them proud. I just a failure product. If I'm at gun point, maybe..I will let the bullet pass through my brain. I envy if my cousins and my girlfriend. Their relationship with their parents seems to be much better. I for surely, does not believe if other people said that "your parent do that, is because they love you". I will never believe in that shit. So far from reality to me. In my family, perfection surely is they key. And I will be struggling for the rest of my life. This is not my death note, but my confession of myself about my so-called family.

p/s: I always wonder what happen if, I enter a tv shows and then they ask my family about me. I somehow doubt that the things said will be true.

30th November 2010

Its already 30th November. Tomorrow will start a new waiting. For the 5th, I have my anniversary with my lovely girlfriend. Both of us still wondering what to do on that day. Things did not looking good in term of financially. Just hoping to see each other. Its been two week since the last time we saw each other. I just cant believe it. Its almost been a year. The longest time I ever been with somebody. This mean so much to me. And I believe, this will be the last person that I will ever committed with.

On the 10th, my examination result will come out. I'm so nervous & anxious. What will it be? I fear the most on my Calculus II subject. I scored low on my carry mark. Thats bother me a lot. I only manage to pass 1 out of 3 test. That is not good. Adi said I can do it in the class. Somehow, in exam things did not go as I planned. $%^&*. When I sat for the exam (Calculus II), I already thought that it will not be easy. And I was right. I did skip a few questions. That will cost me. Well, what done is done. Nothing that I can do to make it better. Hoping I will get C or better. I made my nazar. If I pass Calculus II, I will be fasting for a month. Calculus II, so far is the worst subject I taken. Really hoping I will pass it.

If I do pass, then maybe I will fly to Shah Alam. For fast track. I really want to take my degree early. I dont want to be left out. It come down to the next Friday. Surely, that day UiTM's server will be down. Considering that they do not spend more budget on the server. It happened all the time. I still dont know why the wont fix this problem. Clearly showing a weakness in its IT industry.

First Ever

HAPPY 100 & 101 POST~!

Yesterday, I made my first ever recorder video game. I recorded my drifting in GRID. Highest combo I ever scored; 32 combo. Its not the biggest combo ever recorded, but its my first ever. Other players have scored beyond my drifting points. Reaching about more than 200 millions. Some even has scored a billion. My skills still need to be developed. still being novice

I Nailed It!!

Yeahhhh! I nailed it! I scored 23 million drifting point in GRID. It really happened and below is my exhibit A . .hahaha....

it took me quite a while to understand how to get a high score..I failed at drifting at high score..the only thing I did is what I normally do, collect many combo as I can. I used to do this in NFS: Carbon..it works..and enable me to get Drift King. Here in GRID, things difference. Its not the overall score that make your title. Its each individual drift. For example, drifting at one corner. That corner score will show how good was your drift. So far, I failed in getting Drift Legend. I really wonder how much do I need to score in order to get that title.

It took me 23 combo in order to these million. I really push my drifting skills to the limit. I hold the combo with making my laps time. I actually arouse by computer player that drift in front of me. Making me want to do better at him ( or her? ). This score is made when I'm using the extreme difficulties. In this difficulty, computer are only able to score below than 10 million. So far as I know.

Unfortunately, I know little about recording video games. These image was taken by using my DSLR. Currently typing, I already download the software to record the video game. My victory in scoring this high score will not be the last. hehhe..

Assassin's Creed

My 2nd holiday game. hahah..I was amaze by this game. I finally get the chance of becoming an assassin. haha..if fun killing people in a way of secret. haha...this game bring us back to the old ages. You will control Altair. He is one of the assassin. In this game, the theory is, each one of us has the DNA of our ancestor. Altair is the ancestor to Desmond. Desmond is the actual character that we control in this game. By using Animus, scientist can access Desmond memory and search for his ancestor memory.

Well...something seems not right. Logically, Altair is muslim..but Desmond is christian. how could that be? seems the story is not right. However, in Assassins Creed II the story seems to be logic because now we will be playing Enzio. An assassins in the Roman Age.

Sadly for me....I could not play assassins creed II. huhuh...there seems to be problem with cracking the game. Hishhh...what a troublesome!

Race Driver: GRID

Its holiday. I now can play computer games all day long if I want to. I been addicted to drifting in this game. I play it for 6 round and it was never enough. My highest point in drifting was about 7 million ++...that is not enough! I want to beat 20 million. My favorite car is Nissan Sylvia, but in order to get more than 2 million, I used Toyota Corolla (AE86). AE86 handling seems much simpler than Sylvia. Plus, AE86 is much shorter car which give me much better drifting. I did not played this game with keyboard. I could...but i dont want to. I used joystick. Much cooler drifting with analog. haha

Believe it or not, the highest difficulty in drifting is Ninja. hahah...You heard me right. I was surprised too when I discover it. Sadly in this game, I only good at drifting. The other races sucks. I dont know what the problem is but I just failed at other type of races.

I really looking forward for GRID 2. Hopefully, there will more car available for drifting. There only a little choices of cars. I wish there is Evo 8 in this game. Its one of my favorite car.